.echo//Vision

내가 무슨 안경을 쓰고 어떻게 사랑한다는 인생이라고 살고 있을까...

Perhaps one of the dangers or rather inconsistencies that a sister pointed out to me was the idea of viewing with dual colored lens. The heart is there, no doubt but ultimately when I witness is it from God's heart that I try and introduce let alone share the Gospel or is it from my own...

It's like washing something with a dirty oil soaked rag instead of a fresh clean one.

Before when I think about some of the people in my life and no matter how much assurance I give myself, it still stuns me to no end how honestly blind and foolish I am without God. During lunch with a sister, one of the topics that came up was with a mutual friend and that sister was able to graciously rebuke me in her typical loving manner.

What is true concern? The idea of voluntarily accepting the task of being accountable for one of God's sheep. To be frustrated ignorantly and without full knowledge of a person's life or even a significant person is one thing, but to do so with significant knowledge and relationship is also another. How much harder will they be hit if even you're hit at the utmost limit, that ultimately it doesn't matter. The stakes remain the same, and Satan undoubtedly remains vigilant.

Recently, I heard a quote about how it's not so much that God can't do things without us but rather that He won't. To completely dismiss that, without even considering the blood that was spilled for us to even get to this point to begin with, and totally crumble in front of others. Of course ultimately, God's the game changer, not us. But we're given roles and responsibilities regardless of our patience, ability, faults, etc. When we're called, we're called.

Although I've already planned on staying for another year, it doesn't change the fact that so many are leaving. Among those who are graduating, they all have faces in my mind. And much moreso, to God those are his sheep that are wandering away.
To what degree have I responded or even become aware of how God may have been calling me these past 4 years?

[Romans 5.18-21]
Therefore, as one trespasses led to condemnation for all men, so one act of righteousness leads to justification and life for all men. For as by the one man’s disobedience the many were made sinners, so by the one man’s obedience the many will be made righteous.Now the law came in to increase the trespass, but where sin increased,grace abounded all the more, so that, as sin reigned in death, grace also might reign through righteousness leading to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.