.echo//No More Christmas

Learning to let go. or rather preparing...

Yet I'm still stubborn.

*stupid ambiguous blog posts*

.echo//Document

I got a Moleskine...

the pen is mightier than QWERTY

.echo//151 for thought

Note to self:

In the situation where you or I may need to obtain liquid nitrogen-like substances but are too poor to afford such chemicals, consider the following alternative:

-1 Styrofoam cooling box
-packages of dry ice
-paper cups, with a couple holes cut through
-95% Alcohol [isoproppyl, a la rubbing alcohol]
---> an alternative to this is Bacardi 151

Don't be an idiot and stick your finger in it kids, as itll give you frostbite.

.echo//Common Enemy

.echo//Examination

Hello blog, it's been awhile.

I must admit the past 2.5 weeks has been quite a trip for me, spiritually and emotionally. I'm not one who's very eloquent with words or deep in thought. I have primitive emotions and I've realized that breaking out of my kid immature mentality is suddenly a lot more difficult.

I believe a lot of my confusion probably came from shame. I sought and yearned so much to find common ground and became so overconfident that as a result, my pride and ignorance created a bastard child known as idolatry. Although in my head, I always convinced myself that indeed the Gospel was enabling me to love and to try and live in love, my love and focus was straying more and more away from God. When it came down to it, the only thing I really truly have in common with her is that we are both sinners. Without even realizing it, I found myself building a fragile foundation out of failed attempts to make impressions and really, just proving how much more I needed to grow.

Thank God sooo much for Harbor and young adults. For older brothers who calmly read me like books and rebuking and teaching me so much. For younger brothers and sisters whose hearts to serve have encouraged me to try and serve more.

" I Will be Happy when..."
This series has challenged me to no end. Ive stubbornly tried to play it off, but I now realize that God has been trying to speak me to constantly. Bottom line is that in my heart, I was not truly convinced that all that God had provided me with thus far was really sufficient. Gotta keep truckin and replace all that dumb anxiety with grateful prayer.

-Fine tune the mind and seek peace from the Divine-

.echo//Saturday Mornings

So what was supposed to be a remake for Frost Man's BGM from Megaman 8 turned out to be this.

.echo//Towed

So today after meeting up with the Harborites, I got back really late...and I couldn't find parking for the longest time. No joke, I spent a good 40 minutes just driving and circling freaking Danzee and Berger and Kearny Villa and it was driving me insane.

In addition, there was this cop that was also circling the neighborhood, looking hella shady and checking the inside of every car with his giant maglight. I hate cops usually because they make me feel nervous and I've always been intimidated by them. So I thought to myself "God, why now? It's 2AM and I'm tired. I can't even find parking, let alone look suspicious while I'm exhausted and probably not even in the right state of mind to drive around. I passed this cop like at least 6-8 times. Eventually, I got too fed up and parked in a restricted zone a few blocks from my place.

If that cop messes with my car, I'ma lay the smack down and get arrested...or so I thought.

After dropping my stuff and lying on the bed, I wondered why I had such evil vicious mean thoughts towards that cop, who was probably also as piss tired as I was but he can't even go home. And thus being worried about my car, not even 10 minutes after I got home, I decided to take a walk around the block to cool off. I bumped into that same cop patrolling, except he was now joined by a tow truck who happened to be towing the very car in front of my house. I was like....eh?

The cop then asked me where I was parked.
"Um....not in a good spot."
Cop: "Tell you what. For now, you can park *points* over there [on the fire lane across the street] and I'll let you take this spot after the tow truck leaves.

Eddie thinking: SWEET!

So I quickly rush to my car and drive back to that spot, only to feel my heart sink as 3 other cars were waiting for that spot. I parked in the fire lane anyways and watched what they were doing next. But as every car tried to park there, the cop kept flashing his sirens to scare everyone off xD

So not only did I find parking, but I got VIP service by the San Diego Police Department. They basically and conveniently towed away a truck just so I could park.

Bwawhahahahahaaahahahahahhahahhhahahahahahahahh