.echo//Flashback

The role of the Holy Spirit?

As it resides in us, it enables us to be steered towards God, thus giving thanks to God is also enabled by the Holy Spirit; to not only glorify Him but to give thanks with purposeful intent not just for what happens around you, but for remaining who He is.

.echo//Migraine

.echo/Falcon Kic--erm I mean PUNCH

.echo//Swagger

.echo//Rice

Se você disser que eu desafino amor
Saiba que isto em mim provoca imensa dor
Só privilegiados têm o ouvido igual ao seu
Eu possuo apenas o que Deus me deu

Se você insiste em classificar
Meu comportamento de anti-musical
Eu mesmo mentindo devo argumentar
Que isto é Bossa Nova, isto é muito natural

O que você não sabe nem sequer pressente
É que os desafinados também têm um coração
Fotografei você na minha Rolley-Flex
Revelou-se a sua enorme ingratidão

Só não poderá falar assim do meu amor
Este é o maior que você pode encontrar
Você com a sua música esqueceu o principal
Que no peito dos desafinados
No fundo do peito bate calado
Que no peito dos desafinados também bate um coração

.echo//Pollution

.echo//Advent

Final keyboarding project for MUS2AK. Not EQ'd cuz im too lazy and i have finals to study for ;)

.echo//No More Christmas

Learning to let go. or rather preparing...

Yet I'm still stubborn.

*stupid ambiguous blog posts*

.echo//Document

I got a Moleskine...

the pen is mightier than QWERTY

.echo//151 for thought

Note to self:

In the situation where you or I may need to obtain liquid nitrogen-like substances but are too poor to afford such chemicals, consider the following alternative:

-1 Styrofoam cooling box
-packages of dry ice
-paper cups, with a couple holes cut through
-95% Alcohol [isoproppyl, a la rubbing alcohol]
---> an alternative to this is Bacardi 151

Don't be an idiot and stick your finger in it kids, as itll give you frostbite.

.echo//Common Enemy

.echo//Examination

Hello blog, it's been awhile.

I must admit the past 2.5 weeks has been quite a trip for me, spiritually and emotionally. I'm not one who's very eloquent with words or deep in thought. I have primitive emotions and I've realized that breaking out of my kid immature mentality is suddenly a lot more difficult.

I believe a lot of my confusion probably came from shame. I sought and yearned so much to find common ground and became so overconfident that as a result, my pride and ignorance created a bastard child known as idolatry. Although in my head, I always convinced myself that indeed the Gospel was enabling me to love and to try and live in love, my love and focus was straying more and more away from God. When it came down to it, the only thing I really truly have in common with her is that we are both sinners. Without even realizing it, I found myself building a fragile foundation out of failed attempts to make impressions and really, just proving how much more I needed to grow.

Thank God sooo much for Harbor and young adults. For older brothers who calmly read me like books and rebuking and teaching me so much. For younger brothers and sisters whose hearts to serve have encouraged me to try and serve more.

" I Will be Happy when..."
This series has challenged me to no end. Ive stubbornly tried to play it off, but I now realize that God has been trying to speak me to constantly. Bottom line is that in my heart, I was not truly convinced that all that God had provided me with thus far was really sufficient. Gotta keep truckin and replace all that dumb anxiety with grateful prayer.

-Fine tune the mind and seek peace from the Divine-

.echo//Saturday Mornings

So what was supposed to be a remake for Frost Man's BGM from Megaman 8 turned out to be this.

.echo//Towed

So today after meeting up with the Harborites, I got back really late...and I couldn't find parking for the longest time. No joke, I spent a good 40 minutes just driving and circling freaking Danzee and Berger and Kearny Villa and it was driving me insane.

In addition, there was this cop that was also circling the neighborhood, looking hella shady and checking the inside of every car with his giant maglight. I hate cops usually because they make me feel nervous and I've always been intimidated by them. So I thought to myself "God, why now? It's 2AM and I'm tired. I can't even find parking, let alone look suspicious while I'm exhausted and probably not even in the right state of mind to drive around. I passed this cop like at least 6-8 times. Eventually, I got too fed up and parked in a restricted zone a few blocks from my place.

If that cop messes with my car, I'ma lay the smack down and get arrested...or so I thought.

After dropping my stuff and lying on the bed, I wondered why I had such evil vicious mean thoughts towards that cop, who was probably also as piss tired as I was but he can't even go home. And thus being worried about my car, not even 10 minutes after I got home, I decided to take a walk around the block to cool off. I bumped into that same cop patrolling, except he was now joined by a tow truck who happened to be towing the very car in front of my house. I was like....eh?

The cop then asked me where I was parked.
"Um....not in a good spot."
Cop: "Tell you what. For now, you can park *points* over there [on the fire lane across the street] and I'll let you take this spot after the tow truck leaves.

Eddie thinking: SWEET!

So I quickly rush to my car and drive back to that spot, only to feel my heart sink as 3 other cars were waiting for that spot. I parked in the fire lane anyways and watched what they were doing next. But as every car tried to park there, the cop kept flashing his sirens to scare everyone off xD

So not only did I find parking, but I got VIP service by the San Diego Police Department. They basically and conveniently towed away a truck just so I could park.

Bwawhahahahahaaahahahahahhahahhhahahahahahahahh

.echo//ph47 l007

So while cleaning up my apartment...at 3 AM.. I went to throw out our couch and i noticed a couple where ppl always throw away their junk. usually its cool bc people throw away movies that im too lazy to rent or buy so occasionally i bump into an old chinese pirated copy that i sorta just take and watch for kicks. so after picking upa dusty byut unopened copy of pirates of the caribbean, wrong turn, and what i believe is some old Nicholas cage flick, i noticed a HUGE stack of CD cases....hmm....

these are the following CDs, and legit copies mind you, that i then picked up:

50 cent - the massacre
dizzy gilespie - and his big band in concert
Dave Brubeck quartet - time out and take five
Thelonius monk - Monk round the world
thelonius monk - monk's dream: thelonius monk quartet
U2 - All that yu leave behind
Muddy Waters - best of
Dave douglsas - soul on soul
Roy hargrove - with strings
Stevie wonder - songs of the key of life vol. 1 and 2
stevie wonder - the definitive collection
ziggy marley - love is my religion
Wynton Marsalis - marsalis standard time
Creed - weathered
bob marley and the wailers - live
dane cook - retaliation
chuck mangione - live at the hollywood bowl
The jackson 5 anthology
tlc - fanmail
Jimi Hendrix - Bold as Love
Clifford Brown - Finest Hour
Clifford Brown - the definitive
Ray Charles - The Very Best of
Louis Armstrong - Hot fives and Sevens
the real Blues brothers
miles davis - kind of blue
Big bad voodoo Daddy
Chicago - greatest hits
Muse - absolution

not only was this guy a Muse fan but he apparently really loved jazz..SCORE!!

.echo//Yay

waiting for jury duty.
when life gives you lemons, run away. that stuff makes me gag.

God provides to those who deserve nothing.

.echo//Intermission

.echo//Insomnia

I wish I could leave the country...

right now, I feel like Jonah.

.echo//Vision

내가 무슨 안경을 쓰고 어떻게 사랑한다는 인생이라고 살고 있을까...

Perhaps one of the dangers or rather inconsistencies that a sister pointed out to me was the idea of viewing with dual colored lens. The heart is there, no doubt but ultimately when I witness is it from God's heart that I try and introduce let alone share the Gospel or is it from my own...

It's like washing something with a dirty oil soaked rag instead of a fresh clean one.

Before when I think about some of the people in my life and no matter how much assurance I give myself, it still stuns me to no end how honestly blind and foolish I am without God. During lunch with a sister, one of the topics that came up was with a mutual friend and that sister was able to graciously rebuke me in her typical loving manner.

What is true concern? The idea of voluntarily accepting the task of being accountable for one of God's sheep. To be frustrated ignorantly and without full knowledge of a person's life or even a significant person is one thing, but to do so with significant knowledge and relationship is also another. How much harder will they be hit if even you're hit at the utmost limit, that ultimately it doesn't matter. The stakes remain the same, and Satan undoubtedly remains vigilant.

Recently, I heard a quote about how it's not so much that God can't do things without us but rather that He won't. To completely dismiss that, without even considering the blood that was spilled for us to even get to this point to begin with, and totally crumble in front of others. Of course ultimately, God's the game changer, not us. But we're given roles and responsibilities regardless of our patience, ability, faults, etc. When we're called, we're called.

Although I've already planned on staying for another year, it doesn't change the fact that so many are leaving. Among those who are graduating, they all have faces in my mind. And much moreso, to God those are his sheep that are wandering away.
To what degree have I responded or even become aware of how God may have been calling me these past 4 years?

[Romans 5.18-21]
Therefore, as one trespasses led to condemnation for all men, so one act of righteousness leads to justification and life for all men. For as by the one man’s disobedience the many were made sinners, so by the one man’s obedience the many will be made righteous.Now the law came in to increase the trespass, but where sin increased,grace abounded all the more, so that, as sin reigned in death, grace also might reign through righteousness leading to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

.echo//INposure

Sucking up?
Instead suck it up;
the world need not know
out your mouth drip God's Word.
Treasures and praises stem not from sight
but in Heaven's block in blinding light.
The crowds of earth dismiss God's Kingdom
what gives from their doubt, except no reason?
expect from every season
they cry 'the cross is treason'

but forever keep in mind,
if you of little faith
that value rests in heaven
not from rewards of today.


This has been a message from the ministry of memories
so if you have been informed, watch the ninjas please.

[Matthew 6.34]
Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow,
그러므로 내일 일을 위하여 염려하지 말라
for tomorrow will be anxious for itself.
내일 일은 내일 염려할 것이요
Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
한 날 괴로움은 그날에 족하니라